Looks like it’s been just about one month exactly since I last wrote. Guess it’s time. Hmm, a little synchronistic.
I am moved right now to write because I really want to remember this small but very significant memory. I took a day off from work and spent the day with a special friend of mine. Wow! I had so much fun! I had scheduled this day off in advance so my anticipation had been building it up. The 19th – a Scorpio Full Moon – finally arrived. We started our day early.
We didn’t do anything spectacular; we didn’t go anywhere far. We went somewhere that I hadn’t visited in a long while, and re-experiencing it felt so new. It felt like I actually traveled far away for just a day. I know that one thing I consciously did that day was to leave everything that I had been working on at home. I just left it; didn’t bring anything with me to remind me of it; didn’t try to squeeze any of it in my day off like I normally do. Nope, just said I am leaving it behind, just for today. Oh my god, what a relief! What a load off my shoulders. Though,at first, I felt the guilt trying to slip in. And then, I thought, ‘ya know, I am not going to let you come in today because I am having fun right now and I am going to ride this fun feeling out’. It worked!
The Ball and Starqueen had a day filled only with pleasurable things. We ate yummy food that we had also anticipated, including yummy dessert. We watched a movie — the perfect escape to anything, if you ask me. We went shopping at some delightful shops! Oh, it was just so pleasurable that it made it so much fun. Oh and we topped off the evening pretending to be pop stars on Sony’s Karaoke video game. Singing is so therapeutic … not everyone feels the same, I know. My mother calls it karaokrap and considers it to be therapukeish. Yeah, that’s because she just can’t sing, okay? Moving on.
Having this day made me realize the importance of truly having fun — where you set aside a time for just yourself or you and others to experience pure pleasure, acting on your whims and desires. No obligations are allowed. No. None. That is why we don’t get to have too many days like this, because life is one responsibility after another and while we can always have fun day in day out, that fun is combined with our responsibilities, the things we must do or should do. So “FUN DAY” shouldn’t have too many expectations and no-no-no obligations. Only whims, pleasures, desires.
Getting okay with some hedonism every once in awile is exactly what my day off taught me. Now, isn’t that just fantastic?!
