My mother, with all her human shortcomings, deserves simply the best because she is a beautiful human being inside and out. I think the best way to describe her is to read the song lyrics, The Wind Beneath My Wings (Bette Midler).  

The Wings Beneath My Wings Lyrics

 It must’ve been cold there in my shadow, To never have sunlight in your face, You’ve were content to let me shine, You always walked a step behind

So I was the one with all the glory, While you were the one with all the strength, Beautiful face without a name for so long, A beautiful smile to hide the pain

Did you ever know that you’re my hero, And everything I would like to be, I can fly higher than an eagle, Cause you are the wind beneath my wings. (chorus)

It might have appeared to go unnoted, But I’ve got it all here in my heart, I want you to know I know the truth, of course I know, I would be nothing without you

(chorus 3 x)

Fly, fly, fly away, you let me fly so high, Fly, Fly, the wind beneath my wings, the wind beneath my wings, fly, fly, so high I get through the sky, So high I almost touch the sky , thank you, thank you, Thank God for you, the Wind Beneath My Wings.

Mom is quietly the wind beneath so many people’s wings. She does so many little things that are actually grand acts of kindness and love. She reminds me so much nowadays of my lovely Granny. Sometimes when I look at her, I see my Granny. I tear up because it is something so beautiful.

The amount of gifts that I received was almost overwhelming for me. I almost didn’t feel worthy and I was absolutely humbled — [now, that doesn't mean I was not my typical passionate and feisty self]. I think that I really came to my knees on this birthday. The greatest gifts I received were (in no particular order) family, friends, love, bounty, and humility.  I also got some really beautiful material gifts, ie. food, socks, a framed photograph, cologne, handcrafted gifts, oracle deck, money, a book. WOW, right? It was an amazing weekend beginning on Thursday. I never would have expected any of it. My stomach was full – literally and metaphorically.

I wondered, ‘do people really like me that much? Hmm… why? ‘ Well, I think they do like me. I accept. I receive. Because I MUST. If I got stuck on being perplexed at why they like me or of they really like me I would miss this very special moment and these very special gifts that my Universe has set me up to receive. I don’t want to miss that ANYMORE EVER. 

All that I can say is Thank You and what I can do is continue to be the best me I know how to be.

Decisions that have already been made since the last entry:

I know that after December 31 I will be catapulting myself into the great unknown where the veil between me and my guides, helpers, angels will be much much thinner.

I closed my Studio doors … and have decided to run my services through home.

I have decided what school to go to .. the next question is HOW??? How will I get the money I need to pay for the first degree.

Other notes: I am excited for myself and then the ego voice of mine pops up now and again to tell me that I can’t do it; that I will fail; that I am nothing. It hurts me. How can that be? How can I turn against myself? I acknowledge it and let those words go. I have to. I have to just remain present and grounded and just know that what I want will be, so long as God sees it’s fit. What do I need to worry for? I have all that I need and I am thankful. Thank you Thank you Thank you I must keep repeating. I am going to begin praying to St. Jude for myself and for my mom and my friend Cesar. Starting Shamanism course of study this month.

Contemplating Purity right now. Angel of Purity, show me what I need to know. Show me what Purity means. Help me to embrace it.

Be back soon.

And so October is now here; last quarter of the year. I can hear the clock ticking … Tick..tock..tick..tock… and the buzzer is going off. Ugh! So much to do so little time. Easy to tell how I am feeling!

At this moment, the hardest part of the changes is to be able to discern what to let go of, what to keep and what to invite in. How to let go of the old in order to move forward as smoothly as possible? How can I fully trust myself? How to know myself well enough to know that I know what is best for me –to know that I am discerning correctly?

The only way that I can trust myself is to listen very quietly and carefully for the voice of my spirit. The lady girl with pretty long dark hair who is just as beautiful inside as she is outside. Another way is to hear my angel guides and my other helper friends.

I do know that the angels are so close to me right now, but I still wish that I could get some incredibly obvious and tangible instant answer. That answer would clearly tell me what I should do and provide a no-duh kind -of -a -why I should do it.  I know … I know … it just does not happen that way. I just need to buy myself time and listen in. I buy myself time by preparing for and projecting into some future unknown. This is called the mean time.

Matters that are nearing “death” and awaiting final decisions:

a) which school do I enroll at

b) whether or not to continue Spiritual Direction training

c) Closing my studio doors beginning in October

d) Job transition and what is in line with my Spirit and Gifts

I hope I can remain clear headed and pure of heart.

Answer these questions:

What do you do?

Who can you help?

What makes your service different than others?

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ROUGH DRAFT NUMERO UNO.

I combine body work with spirit work. I provide “table readings”. While I massage the body I also receive messages from Spirit. These messages may come in the form of an image that could mean something specifically for you or they may come as reassuring words or as affirmations that you need to hear.

I will mostly be able to help you if you are at a crossroads or an impasse. I can also help you if you have an illness or are recovering from one. I can help you if you need guidance. I can help if you are going through changes.

What makes my service different is that it takes traditional massage therapy into the spirit realm. The body therapy I provide is often described as energy massage and it is distinct in that I bridge the body work with your spirit. As a clairaudient I can hear my helpers and can also hear yours. As a clairvouyant I see images around the spirit body that are especially for you to bring context to. My services truly provide a holistic healing, as the body, spirit and mind are touched.

yeah, I’m talking to you, listen up. Here’s a word from the wise.

Last night you were in a funk. Your heart kinda sunked. You were self critical. You were, in a nutshell, WORRIED. Worried about an outcome. An outcome? What the hell is that? You know and I know that outcome is really really really overrated. Not only is it overrated but to obssess over it is absolutely not worthwhile. No worries, right? isn’t that the expression that you always use?

You asked for a sign. So here it is in the form of an article to you. This is a gentle reminder for you. You and your friend were just talking about this last week. I overheard it. Hey, no, it wasn’t that I was eaves dropping. I have to take notes in order to provide you these gentle reminders. It’s my job! Remember you were talking about the strength of your Spirits? You said that you were not so much a warrior as that you spent most of your time with warriors. You said that you worked with death – it’s transitions etcetera.

Read this. It’s for you from us.

Power of Living an Authentic Life

Why the Shaman Seeks Impeccability

Guest article from Maggie Wahls

The key to living in this world as a healer is to incorporate our skills and disciplines into our hearts in the most impeccable way possible. It is not enough to have knowledge or good intentions. The Shaman strives constantly to be the most disciplined and the highest skilled hunter he can be. He is not concerned with his own life, obsessed with any outcome, or allowing himself to give power away to anyone or anything. It is in the control and direction of his power that he hones his skills to become an impeccable hunter in the forest.

A Shaman is a Warrior, a Hunter

He is on his highest alert, fully prepared, moving deliberately with his intention held firmly in place in the forefront of his mind. He is ready for anything, being emotionally centered although feeling the excitement of the hunt and the anticipation of the successful outcome. No one could sneak up on a good hunter. It is he who is doing the stalking. The hunter knows his skills, has practiced a long time, and knows where to look for the game he needs. A hunter has heightened his senses so he can smell the wind and see in low light. He knows a bear or wolf can attack him at anytime so he does his very best every minute. To do less may mean his death.

Why the Shaman Seeks Impeccability

The Shaman knows that death walks with him on his left side close enough to reach out and touch him at any moment. It is in this understanding that all we have is today, right now, to be the best we can be, that we are called to be constantly walking the path of impeccability. When one’s mortality is always a present thought we begin to see our lives with different eyes. Ask anyone suffering from a terminal disease and they will tell you how precious it is to watch a sunrise, to see a child sleeping, to hug your dog. We learn to wash the dishes as though it is the last time we may ever wash the dishes. It becomes a ceremony, an act of love and a joy to perform. Death becomes a friend, an ally, a guide to what is most important right now in our lives, what we most need to do and be and say to those we love. There is no time to wait until tomorrow.

Being the Best We Can Be

When we observe our own mortality we see that it does not matter if we are kings or paupers, rich or poor, famous or unknown. These things have nothing to do with our true selves. The hunter does not sit in the forest and shout out his importance to the trees. He is a hunter, like so many hunters who have gone to this forest before him to accomplish the same goal. He thinks of his brothers and sisters and is honored to sit with them in spirit and share their experience. With a sense of one’s own mortality there comes a sense of humility natural for anyone realizing the larger picture of all of life. It is not about standing taller than those who came before. If we only have today, would we not want to be the best we can be today.

Striving for Perfection

A Shaman has in many ways met his own death; The death of his childhood ideas, the death of his ego and self importance, the death of his emotional surges that would drag him back and forth. The hunter has a personal relationship with death, not one of adversary but one of necessity and even sustenance. Walking with this understanding allows one to see the beauty in every vision, every action, and every moment of one’s life. It is not about becoming perfect. Perfection is striving to be one better than your neighbor, to achieve status, to break a record. Perfection causes striving and since it is never attained, it leaves the striver unfulfilled, unhappy and unsatisfied. But a life lived impeccably is filled with joy, with wonder and with satisfaction that every action, thought and word was the very best effort one could make. This is the core of loving yourself in the highest and truest form.

Power of Living an Authentic Life

A Shaman in his awareness of his mortality finds himself much more alert and aware, trying to drink in everything around him. Thus, he gains knowledge on a level not approached by others. This knowledge then hones his sense of awareness and he sees the work of deeper energies on the earth and studies them with excitement and a natural thirst for improvement. This in turn engenders even more honing of skills causing more awareness and so impeccability is naturally engendered not through pride or perfection but through awe and experiencing all that can be experienced in the short time he has. This is the true source of personal power and this power is only available by living an authentic life.

The hunter chooses to bring sustenance to himself and his people by being the very best hunter he can be. He is willing to accept any challenge he may encounter in that forest with skill, awareness and a sense of anticipation in success. Your life circumstance is the forest for you. Stand in your forest with impeccability and you will find yourself surrounded with love and joy and adventure for every minute of your short time on this planet. Become all that you can be.

The reason for my post today is simply to express my deep gratitude for I have health insurance.Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. I have health insurance! I am blessed for this.

As a moral principal, though, I don’t think I should be one of the lucky ones. I don’t think it should be a blessing that I am blessed to have. Why not everyone? Isn’t medical attention for our overall health a basic human right in our modern civilization?

After watching Sicko, I am aware that I am one lucky American to have health insurance. Oh but even though I am lucky enough to have it it does not guarantee that all of my medical conditions, past, present, or future will be covered. I may be denied coverage or attention and end up in the the unlucky boat of folks never having had it. So, I pray that my Lord keep my family and I as healthy as can be. Which brings me to my next point … …

I already have strong feelings of the importance of maintaining health in the body and after watching the film I feel even stronger about it. To have health we need to know what it is; what does it mean to ourselves … before finding out from a Doctor who give us their definition on an unexpected Dr. visit.

What is my health? What does my health mean to me? How can I be healthy? Why is my health important?

In these United States, alternative health practices are crucial for those of us who see that our health care system is lacking. Being a practitioner of alternative health the matter of health is core to me. My well being is my health. I do not see a difference between the two. My feeling good means my health is good. I do not see a difference between these two things. What I provide to people, as an alternative health practitioner, addresses their overall well being so that they can get what they need, so that hopefully they will never have to experience an illness. But also, if they have experienced an illness, my services are there to help the “soldier” return to wholeness … not only in their physical bodies but in their hearts and minds. Our health care system does not address all that. Not yet, at least.

Anyway, I’m sure that I can find more things to go on about, but I’ll spare myself. See the movie yourself and independent of it, think about what health is.

She came right up to me and asked me if I had just had a Reiki treatement (we were at Sacred Paths Bookstore event). It was my best friend that she had been referring to (people mistake us for one another often). I let her know that it hadn’t been me but took the opportunity to ask her if she’d had Reiki before because I was eager to let her know that the person doing the Reiki was awesome and that I am sure she’d love it. After that we just connected, right away. She started to let me know (not in any great detail, and I didn’t need all those details anyway) that she just felt out of sorts and was in transition in her self and in her body [menopause, I gathered]. She was just in flux and I could sense that very easily. Then, kind of out of nowhere she asked if I knew any good massage therapists! Wow. Whoa. OH MY GOSH! Of course I told her about me and my specialty. And that is when I said, ‘Lorette, you are my perfect client.” I left her with my business card and invited her to call or email me with any questions that she may have.

The reason I am writing about this is because it is an affirmation that what we want and what we think really does come true. I expect that I will run into/meet/ attract more people like Lorette into my life so that I may be able to be of service to them. I just know that I can help them. These are my wishes because they are my soul’s wishes. My soul and my Lord want me to provide people a space to heal — inside and out as well as outside and in. I do that through a healing touch that comes from my hands and presence. It comes from somewhere outside of me and yet within me.

I expect to hear from Lorette. It would my pleasure to work with her.  She marks the first of many  perfect clients to come.

Thank you.

He or she is on the verge of becoming a butterfly or has just become a butterfly or has just come out of the cocoon.

He or she needs a safe space to become grounded because they feel areas of their lives are in upheaval.

He or she is open to hearing messages from their Higher Self, Angels and Spirit Helpers (through me).

He or she is open to receiving help from unseen forces through me.

He or she is open to shifting their reality; their thoughts.

He or she is open or ready to bridge their body to spirit through bodywork.

He or she is going through transition or has just come out of transition and needs nurturing and support for themselves as they go into their new path/ new direction.

He or she wants to make a transition but is not sure what to do next.

He or she is recovering from an illness — such as Cancer or Stroke or is a burn victim.

He or she needs the best of human connection. Touch can convey love and support to them — from universal life force. They will feel peaceful and supported.

He or she knows that it is time to take care of themselves.

*I am synchronistically meeting people like this in my life now. They are walking into my life to be my perfect clients. *