It’s now November. I am still here. It has been almost rediculously busy for me … some great things for me and some other really trivial mundane things. Busy. But what about some fun? What about some refreshment? I am trying. I am trying to get there.
Decisions that have already been made since the last entry:
I know that after December 31 I will be catapulting myself into the great unknown where the veil between me and my guides, helpers, angels will be much much thinner.
I closed my Studio doors … and have decided to run my services through home.
I have decided what school to go to .. the next question is HOW??? How will I get the money I need to pay for the first degree.
Other notes: I am excited for myself and then the ego voice of mine pops up now and again to tell me that I can’t do it; that I will fail; that I am nothing. It hurts me. How can that be? How can I turn against myself? I acknowledge it and let those words go. I have to. I have to just remain present and grounded and just know that what I want will be, so long as God sees it’s fit. What do I need to worry for? I have all that I need and I am thankful. Thank you Thank you Thank you I must keep repeating. I am going to begin praying to St. Jude for myself and for my mom and my friend Cesar. Starting Shamanism course of study this month.
Contemplating Purity right now. Angel of Purity, show me what I need to know. Show me what Purity means. Help me to embrace it.
Be back soon.
