At the doorstep of lots of changes. I think I mentioned that already. Changes usually happen suddenly, with hardly any time to think. About the changes I am going through, one good thing is that I do have time to think. I have enough time to do some marinating. Though, I am well aware that time is stealth and she’ll creep up on ya.
And so October is now here; last quarter of the year. I can hear the clock ticking … Tick..tock..tick..tock… and the buzzer is going off. Ugh! So much to do so little time. Easy to tell how I am feeling!
At this moment, the hardest part of the changes is to be able to discern what to let go of, what to keep and what to invite in. How to let go of the old in order to move forward as smoothly as possible? How can I fully trust myself? How to know myself well enough to know that I know what is best for me –to know that I am discerning correctly?
The only way that I can trust myself is to listen very quietly and carefully for the voice of my spirit. The lady girl with pretty long dark hair who is just as beautiful inside as she is outside. Another way is to hear my angel guides and my other helper friends.
I do know that the angels are so close to me right now, but I still wish that I could get some incredibly obvious and tangible instant answer. That answer would clearly tell me what I should do and provide a no-duh kind -of -a -why I should do it. I know … I know … it just does not happen that way. I just need to buy myself time and listen in. I buy myself time by preparing for and projecting into some future unknown. This is called the mean time.
Matters that are nearing “death” and awaiting final decisions:
a) which school do I enroll at
b) whether or not to continue Spiritual Direction training
c) Closing my studio doors beginning in October
d) Job transition and what is in line with my Spirit and Gifts
I hope I can remain clear headed and pure of heart.
